2015 March

 I see my dirty room and feel conjusted in mind . My dirty clothes have still to be washed . My torn pants are yet to be repaired with that broken umbrella . My Geology practical & project has yet to be completed . And my hanging belly hurts due to lack of fibrous food . I feel sick and stressed . And then I wonder about life that what will actually happen ? I have yet to study those untouched looks I call as "Favourite", I have yet to do experimentation. I have yet to purchase that PRM-900 and yet to earn money . But still I guess that Earning Money is not my priority . But seeing Yogesh , seeing Prem , Bhardwaj Bros , seeing Karan , etc. , I am forced to think about my money earning life and about future. I am neither too much optimistic , neither much pessimistic about future , I only think that one day I have to earn some money. I not know that how much I will earn. Maybe I have too many goals to accomplish. But life is too short to write all of them - here .    And I have to take back Rs from so many people , especially Rs 18900 from Yogesh . 

I am seriously very tentioned , So many works to do , that I don't understand that from where should I start. Tomorrow I will wash all clothes, bath, and go to gent's tailor for repairing of pants. And if possible, commence the geol-project report from Introduction after bringing Punch papers and a block pen.

As for my stomach, I would eat cheekus, apples, and some oranges in the whole day, and eat sandwiches for 2-3 days and chappatis with vegetables/dal, and no parantha or rice, and drink milk and no cold drinks or juices. And I will also throw garbage at night tomorrow & try to clean my room till some extent. 

As for earning money, I shouldn't take much tension, because tit or tat, I can't earn any money now. Although, money earning is very important for a person's life, it is still not a best way to be happy. To me, the best way of happiness is sitting or walking in s peaceful and remote region, and studying and exploring the landscape. But even then, each landscape arouses one or the other curosity. Money only makes me feel full. But if that's my own earned money, the experience may be different. I surely want to study more about landforms of the crust as a whole, and the activities and role of mantle and core on Everything happening in or on the Earth.

To me, thinking about Earning Money is just like a Taboo thing nowadays. Why even think of earning now, when I am not eligible to earn in my favourite field of work. I want to love, what I read, and I want to earn from what I love to do. And now I again feel sleepy, that my brain isn't working much. And .... lol, I drowsed holding my pen in my hand lol, so I will think more & write tomorrow.