19-2-2022
I am disgusted with my life .
I studied geology to work in mining or gemstone or palaeontology .
19-2-2022
Loser of mind and heart .
In college I find that in 1 subject I had failed .
I gave fees to improve it .
Parents asked result and I could not say I had failed .
Girlfriend broke up because I was not going to Uk .
And the landlord used to be helicopter , do this , do that , and make fun of me behind my back that I m ugly and I do nothing .
But girlfriend breaking up was the only thing which hurt .
Since then I had lost mind , lost my common sense , lost hair , gained weight , and parents keep scolding to earn money .
I wish to earn , but because of their behaviour I was living far since so many years , and could not tell that I could not complete post graduation due to failing .
I believed that my girlfriend love me most , but then she started chasing british guys .
19-2-2022
Money looks beautiful in hands of wet person who lives like simple presence , never spends anything .
Live like common person .
And a simple person looks great when he not boasts his money , nor spend like a needy .
Needs of arid , poor man , and rich man are same , water and vegetables , use that money for some own tragedy , and charity to the poor .
Let no one die of hunger , or uneducation .
19-2-2022
No job it .
I wish to die .
I m not getting a job .
In my geophysics field , coz there are no jobs in it .
There are only engineering and sales and banking jobs everywhere .
If I work in banking , I may not be able to save money to work abroad in my field , europe , america , japan are all 1000x costly in education , living , expenditure .
Maybe I save money 10 years and then go there .
Even in banking I may be only pressured to sell bank products , what is this pressure all about if I can't work in sector which I studied in .
19-2-2022
Irony of people is that often a 18 year old wishes to die , and a 81 year old wishes to live .
18 year old thinks himself a man , 81 year old think himself a young boy .
18 year old wishes to get rid of people , and 81 year old wishes to be in between people .
19-2-2022
Let people live normally . Adani Tata
Let people cultivate their farms and europeans not attack them .
Let people eat their bread and Usa not bomb them .
Let people sleep peacefully and Nato not missile them .
But this doesn't happen .
And people believe that happiness only exist in Europe or North america .
19-2-2022
Materialistic Guy's True love .
Girlfriend : I m not sure of people of your race ( I only wish to have a british boyfriend ) .
Me spending years to become like british or american minded .
Girlfriend : You don't have big dreams ( Seen english guys having their own car and business and homе while you have nothing ) .
Me : Ignores idea of being a scientist in Russia , to be a businessman in Britain .
Girlfriend : Let us breakup because you are not going to UK ( White skinned race of england or spain impresses me even if you were going to live in England with me ) .
Me spends years to become yellow skinned .
And if any person think that I am a big donkey ,
then Yes I am .
I miss my earlier girlfriend , who loved me as I am , and what I wish to do , or achieve in life .
19-2-2022
Sometimes an illitrate person is more intelligent than highly educated person .
Sometimes a non religious person is more moral than a religious person .
Sometimes a fool is wiser than a saint .
Then what is real education ? On the basis of which a perfect person can be grown .
19-2-2022
People who tell you to be capitalist and selfish ask if you have team skills and community skills . Where do we get these skills from ?
People who are in the corporate sector .
Break from families , make relations or teams in companies .
Not care if you are nice to your family people , but you have to be in etiquettes and always smile to your corporate people .
19-2-2022
This world belong to those who own money , either through begging , or by stealing .
Government steals ,
Businessman begs ,
Public toils and earn .
By constitution , government is servant of public .
But in reality it is servant of businessman ,
And public is servant of businessman .
Public brings profits for businessman , who makes money , and with that money runs government , and government fools public and take taxes from public as well .
19-2-2022
Why is physical labour cheaper than mental labour ?
Climbing electric poles , maintaining a floor of huge building , farming , cleaning houses , driving trucks or tractors , mechanics , their job is 1000 times risky than actors or businessmen or politicians .
And their salary is less than 1% of the actor's or capitalist's income .
19-2-2022
Why do public requires only one leader , not 5 or 10 ?
One of the best examples is a Child , who requires both Father and Mother to become a great person , and third is his own mind , or environment , to be great person .
If every organism require 2-3 people to be governed by ,
Why do millions of people only like to keep 1 president or 1 king ?
19-2-2022
Many people dying in poverty , many old people living on roads .
feel bad how can their sons or daughters leave them , many people who now beg as well , for they had been abandoned by their children .
I can never be a son like that , but my mother who calls me monster and evil when I wished to study science but not engineering , used to hate me when I wished to make grandfather happy . and pedophile father who spends time in watching xvideos in phone , and mother telling me that my father is a saint and I must never say anything bad about him .
19-2-2022
People born as kids of religious organisations , stay leader always .
Kids born of kings or queens remain king or queen as well .
People born on field of gold or petroleum are born millionaires .
Some people do not have to do anything to be rich , but have the genes .
One born in garbage to poor parents have to work hard to become middle class or even rich . On his work , petrol people profit , on his income king profit , on his beliefs religions profit .
19-2-2022
There is no benefit in dying , but it is less painful than living .
Why father was a stranger ,
Why grandparents were wicked ,
Why sister hated ,
Why friends
Why Ep woman was flirting when I wished her to be motherly ,
Why ep man was asking for prostitutes when I considered him a decent person ,
Why first girlfriend cheated ,
Second had blocked me ,
Third also cheated .
Why sw friends wish aquaintance but no real friendship ,
College friends were good but since I got less marks in exams they not like to talk .
Workplace , I work to feed myself , no relationship of relatives , no relationship of love , so how can imagine relationship of grandchildren .
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